Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Finally.... A real blog post!

So it has been a long time since I really posted anything on my blog. I don't know what happened. I use to be so addicted to blogging, but lately not so much.... Well here is a little update on our family. Kyri will be 2 in May. Where did the last 2 years go?? She is growing up way to fast. But she is so much fun. She makes me laugh all day long. Yesterday we went outside to play for a little while and she saw some birds fly over her and she goes, "Birdies!" and I smiled and said "Yep!" Then she goes, "I talka birdies" me,"you are going to talk to the birdies?" her, "uh huh!" then she waited for a minute and then yelled at the top of her lungs, "BIRDIE!!!!" Maybe it really isn't all that funny unless you were there. :) To me it was funny. She is just a BIG ball of energy! She loves to be outside. I can't wait till it is warmer so we can be out there more often. She does love to play in her jumpy jump and watch movies in her room though. Me and Brandon are still the same. He still works at IM Flash, and I babysit about 2-3 times a week. We still live in Orem, but spend most of our time in American Fork. :) Why we ever decided to buy a house in Orem I don't know. But we are loving life, even though we have a bit of a tragedy happen in the last week. Most of you know that we found out about a month ago that we were going to have baby #2. We were excited and told everyone fairly early. Over that month, I have felt fine. No morning sickness, not a ton of nausea, nothing to complain about. Well a couple fridays ago i started to spot just a tiny bit. But I didn't think anything was wrong, because the next day nothing happened. Then again on Sunday it happen a tiny bit again, so I decided to call the dr on Monday morning and see what they said to do. They set me up an appointment for Tuesday to have an ultra sound just to make sure everything was ok. So I went into my appointment thinking nothing was wrong. That we were just going to go in and see our baby and then be ok. Well, that didn't happen. The ultrasound showed the baby measuring at 6 weeks, not the 9 that it should have been. So the lady asked is there a possibility that your dates are off? Well, sure? I don't know. Anything is possible. So then after the ultrasound, we had an appointment to meet with the dr to go over the ultrasound. As he looked at it, he said, i'm so sorry. It looks like you have had a miscarriage. He said that there wasn't anything that we needed to do now, so that we could wait and check in a couple of weeks again and see if there was any change. So we decided that we wanted to wait. He also had me go and get some blood drawn so they could check my HCG levels. So I had my blood drawn on tuesday and then had to go back in on Thursday to have it done again. So they FINALLY called on friday after playing the waiting game forever and informed us that the levels had gone down which ment bad news. So all in all if none of that made sense, I did lose the baby. It hasn't been easy, I am definately sad. Very very sad. But I know that it happened for a reason and that Heavenly Father knew what he was doing, by letting me get pregnant and there is something to learn by going through this. I am so thankful for all my family and friends who have been here with me through this tough time. I am so thankful for my knowledge of the gospel, and for my Heavenly Father. I know that he wouldn't put me through anything that I can't handle. No matter how hard it is. I am sorry to all of you who may find out through reading this post. I wish I could have called all of you to tell you, but so many people knew, and telling the story over and over is really hard. I couldn't have done it over and over. So I hope you understand and aren't hurt that I didn't call you or text you the news. I am doing fine though. I am ready to move forward and continue my life. I am grateful for my husband and for my baby girl who have made this whole thing much easier. I love you all and appreciate all the love and support from all of you!

12 comments:

mr & mrs O. said...

Oh Tory I'm so sorry!! You are incredibly strong, I'm glad you are doing ok, let me know if I can do anything for you love ya girl!!

LacyAsher#1 said...

Tory I am soooo sorry!! You are such a strong person to be able to deal with something like this so well. Heavenly Father knows what he is doing, whether or not we understand it or not. You are such a strong and wonderful person!! I love your face!!! We need to get our girls together soon and do something, maybe without kids, if possible :) Love ya!

DigandStacee said...

I am soo sorry. If there is anything that I can do for you please let me know.

Gio, Tasha, and Bella said...

I am so sorry, Tory. That would be so hard. I hope you are doing ok, or at least soon. Our prayers are with you.

Katie Miller said...

I agree, you are being amazingly strong! You rock! Love ya!

Anonymous said...

OH TORY! I am SO SORRY! Please let me know if there is ANYTHING I can do! Honestly, ANYTHING! I AM HERE!

Becky said...

Tory, I'm very sorry to hear that. Let me know if there is anything we can do for you. We love you!

HOLLY said...

So sorry to hear that Tory! Miscarriages are no fun.

Unknown said...

Tory I am so sorry that you had to go through that. It is one of the hardest things emotionally. Hang in there and if you need anything please let me know. Even just to talk.

Carrie said...

Tory, I am terribly sorry! :( I was tearing up reading that. I bet that it has been rather emotinal for you, I can't even imagine the pain you must feel/have felt. Sorry if this sounds dumb, but it is my belief that you will have a chance to raise that little spirit someday! You are still her (his) mommy. So I know the loss was very difficult. I love your faith and your strength. You are awesome! I agree w/ Lace, let's get together sometime. :)
That's darling about Kyri and the birdies! glad you have her to help you smile through tough times. :)

The Huber Family said...

Tory, you are a really strong woman! I am sorry for your loss. I wish I had been closer to help you get through it. You married a wonderful man and have a beautiful daughter just don't lose sight of all the good things. I love you Tory Lou!!!

Bethany said...

I'm so sorry. That is one of the hardest things to go through. It happend to me and it was hard and sad. I wish you the best. You are in my prayers

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